I didn’t know much about love before I met you.
Sure I had crushes, Boyzone, Take That.
I even had a boyfriend once, we held hands.
But I had never loved, I did not understand
I didn’t know much about sex before I met you
I knew the biology, I had the Sex Ed.
Yet, I knew there had to be more to that.
But I had never come close, I did not understand
I thought you taught me love
You held my hand, you walked me home
You pulled me close and kissed me gently
You took care of me, you were protective
I thought I was embraced with love and safety.
I see it now, I know the truth
You engineered it all, it was a ploy.
You cannot love, you are not capable.
I thought our love had to be physical
Sacrificing for the sake of us
Give and take, you were well rehearsed
You took and took and I never gave,
I didn’t know much about love after we met
My heart not broken, it was never yours.
We had nothing together you and I,
Your role was abuser and mine the victim.
I didn’t know much about sex after we met.
No longer a virgin, yet I’d never had sex.
I see it now, we were not equals.
What you did was nothing but violence
It was not sex and never love.