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Not ready

Last night was rough, or early this morning to be exact. Two sets of memories from two terrible dreams. I think I can handle one, though the body memories are bad and I’m physically hurting, at least it was just me (and him) and at least I have faced it. Oh the other is killing me, I am struggling to contain it, I miss my T. Week two of no therapy.


I need him today

to tell me it’ll be OK.

I am trying to remember

what would he would say.

To remind me it’s possible

that I can contain it.

‘Cos I need to push it away

I am not ready for this.

It’s not something I can face.

Not now, not yet and not today



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